I think I want to start posting here again. I went back on Suboxone around the time of that last post because I was getting nervous that I was going to relapse. There was a lot going on...the book was about to come out and a friend had just been murdered. I didn't trust myself.
But now that I'm almost 100% off of 'box, I feel like I'm awake to the world once more. It has its good and bad sides - I forgot about the constant blanket of crippling shame that I always feel when I'm completely myself, but my sense of ambition has returned.
Maybe one fuels the other.
